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Friday, September 21, 2007

to whom it may concern:


i wish i was there with you sitting by the shoreline, looking out into the sea.
i miss you too,
hope you are well xx
p.s. have you taken a photo of ash after her bath?

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Wednesday, September 19, 2007

there's a part that's extremely happy to see you guys and the younger generation doing so well,
another part of me hating myself for leaving the family;
because in all honesty, i miss it all.
the hard work, the exhilaration, the satisfaction and the elements.
yet at the same time glad that my life turned out the way it did,
cause life can't just evolve around one thing.
there's just so much more than that.

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Tuesday, September 18, 2007

i came to several conclusions after our conversation,
if we don't have the courage to abandon stability for passion now,
when will we ever?
why are affairs characteristically passionate?
because its forbidden, its raw and thick with wild abandon.
an affair is the energy, the feeling of being alive!
its the saving buoy in the midst of the sensible sea of stability.
*disclaimer: i am not condoning affairs.
so i conclude that having a relationship without passion,
can be likened to starting a journey with the end in sight.
because stability alone cannot sustain a relationship, honey.


i love m's christmas gift - especially the plumber, but i'll have the baker on the side too if i can.
j wasn't too impressed by it though.
to know more , or as m so aptly puts it "for the sake of humanity"
explore www.seemoresideeffects.ca and i suggest you take your time.

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Sunday, September 16, 2007

i want,
to be a flamboyant wanderer,
seeking the tranquility on the greek island of paros, tantalising the senses at the colourful spice markets of morocco.
leading a purely hedonistic lifestyle with no regard to social conventions,
no man too unsuitable, no drug too dangerous, no dessert too sinful, no words too politically incorrect.
pragmatism unheard of in the pursuit of what the heart truly desires,
every single time.


where and what is my true self?
i don't think i've ever seen her in the mirror,
much less anyone else.

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Friday, September 14, 2007

dangerously low motivation,
saddening news, and
the racing thoughts on what may come.
compound headache and nausea probably a physical manifestation.


that aside, hopeful that the weekend will be a temporary form of salvation.
and thank you for being the silent holder
so greatly appreciated

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