last morning in bali.
this week has flown by, spending time with dad is cool.
i like coming out here, it always puts me back in perspective.
to be contented, to lose weight, to realise simple joys in simple settings.
life is only as complicated as we make it out to be.
: scenes :
two groups of unidentified white birds circling above the treetops of the valley.
they seem happy, perhaps relishing the freedom,
chirping and twittering as they effortlessly cut the crisp mountain air.
dad said "look at them enjoying their freedom, singing to the others that its free"
makes me think about when i will be singing about my own freedom like that.
dad's dogs, puteh (white) and abu (grey) are so cute, but so agressive when it comes to food. especially abu, she growls (like the bitch she is) when puteh comes near the food bowl when it is menat to be shared. they were wild dogs, given to dad as a gift.
is inherent nature impossible to alter, even when put in an entirely new environment?
how reliable is this 'feeling' of a person thing? what is it based on? sweeping assumptions? discriminations? generalisations? first impressions?
are you really cunning and have unmentionable intentions? or really, maybe you just don't like to talk and have really sleepy eyes. and maybe he is able to act alot more natural and open, when he is actually not.
'feelings' of people, reliable or not?
i am disappointed that it failed to deliver the desired effect. perhaps the 'discussions' was the strain, hopefully it'll be better soon. don't want the pygmalion effect happening. eleven days and it'll be four straight days cause it's 3 day week again!! bloody fabulous i say, abso-bloody-lutely fabulous baby.
jiLL divulged at 8:03 AM 0 Comments
random thoughts:
:: relish the fact that we are so comfortable we can sing Queen songs, badly, together.
hell isn't it always about the fun? ;)
:: HOLGA!!! experiment experiment, it's experimenting time!
:: 2nd trip to the suez, mmm mmm. GRIN
:: leaving for the airport in 10 min to see dad, hello bali!
:: coffee when i come back missy ;)
:: saturday, i'm all yours ok? sorry can't pick u up on tues =( but we will meet soon!
te extrano, sal de mi cabeza ya!
jiLL divulged at 1:50 PM 0 Comments
it pleases me that we've come to the point where any question doesn't pose a problem to ask, and be answered.
next stop, egyptian dinner and smokes after?
now, an idea would be smokes in that over indulgent building.
a good night out perhaps.
i still get excited at changes.
creating a mental list of places i'd bring ya,
of things we'd do,
when you do decide to come visit my lovely city.
you've shown me yours, its my turn to showcase mine.
are you tempting the suez?
jiLL divulged at 9:31 AM 0 Comments
dear smelly monkey:
hello. how are things?
it's been ages since we last met/spoke/had any form of contact
i wonder what's going on in your life right now.
what are your plans for uni, your location, your dad still in china?
i'm in the midst of my exams right now,
but as i stare out to the tree outside my window,
i see memories of you, of us, dancing between the leaves.
our sweet innocence, the glaze in our eyes as we pretended to take on the world,
desperately wanting to grow up.
and now, we have.
where are you in your life right now?
we've both moved on so far, but right this very instant i'm reliving our past.
there were good times, there were bad.
but nonetheless, an experience we both cannot deny.
strangely melancholic, as if i've had a couple lonely glasses of red.
dear k, i hope you are well. i wish you well.
i just thought of you today, there'll always be someplace for you in me somewhere.
take care, maybe we'll talk soon, maybe we'll not.
who knows what the future beholds?
wanting to wake up to lazy mornings in bed with you, rousing and drifting in and out of sleep.
your beautiful body to keep mine warm when the nights are so cold.
jiLL divulged at 11:27 AM 0 Comments
i have exams next tuesday and wednesday,
and loren has hers on tuesday.
look what we ended up doing?
i fully blame it on the stress.
even did a pop art version! 
jiLL divulged at 11:14 PM 0 Comments
from my dad in bali.
"study hard jill. daddy will always love u no matter what the outcome.
bye n luv."
cost of an sms: 22 cents
the warmth it evokes: priceless
jiLL divulged at 8:37 PM 0 Comments