dear elfie,
my dear friend, my lost-and-found again, my king.
pandora's box was an extremely pleasant affair.
i compose this with jazz playing and rose in the air.
i cannot thank you enough for the entire experience,
you've just made something even more so memorable and special.
indeed i may have lost the finer things in life recently,
but you might have just brought it all back again.
decadence in a box, you always have the best for me.
much love and
i await for one, despite vast geographical distances and financial inabilities.
jiLL divulged at 11:08 AM 0 Comments
things to do before leaving tassie:
1) pack belongings into boxes and leave them in the container.
2) have a massive sleepover with the girls on friday, get drunk, paint nails - all that kindna shit.
3) get the building list from j for my architecture walk of ny - an attempt of a pictorial representation
4) get addresses from the people i actually do want to keep in contact with
5) last dinner with all them RAs and dave on sat
6) take 2 more exams (how convenient to not want to think about it)
7) go to the bank
8) get a lot of loving
9) get answer from gail and/or leigh!
<3 you la
jiLL divulged at 9:12 PM 0 Comments
quiet one, but entirely enjoyable.
dinner at fee & me was absolutely divine - a small intimate dinner at the 'best restaurant' in tassie, worthy of a 21st.
opened my packages- are you implying i'm a princess? :) thank you sweetie, will make the lamp my bedside one next year.
(and i'll try to get a house with a bath too so i can use my new bath princesses!)
the girls gave the customary chocolate ganache cake and a beautiful black embossed journal.
had them put in their input on random pages, memories.
thats going to be my travelling journal- all my 'adventures'.
of the places i visit, of the people i meet.
thank you all for the well wishes.
thanks for the support despite your disappointment.
unrelated: having the tendency to giggle incessantly and repeat the children's story on Black Books continuously when drunk.
"There's the elephant. He's happy with his balloon. Oh no! It's gone! Where is it? It's not behind the rhino. Look in the alligator's mouth. It's not there either. Ohhhh... the monkey's got it in the tree! He brings it back. They all drink lemonade. The end!"
my not so dirty little secret. between you and me. nice snuggling.
jiLL divulged at 8:11 PM 0 Comments
never loved anyone quite so much.
bittersweet.
jiLL divulged at 8:17 PM 0 Comments
the socialist vs. the capitalist.
the common little man vs. the mongrels.
am i being the cold, unsympathetic and uncaring go-getter of greater efficiency, competition and progress?
jiLL divulged at 6:54 PM 0 Comments
j said one of the sweetest things he has ever said to me yesterday.
on hearing the song,
"if we're still together when i die, play this at my funeral alright?"
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
-"Goodbye my lover" by James Blunt
jiLL divulged at 9:12 AM 0 Comments
no sense of motivation at all,
i really just want to pack my bags and leave.
only 22 more days!!
also doesn't help with the weather, it's simply too nice to be spent inside.
i had a dream about you, again.
jiLL divulged at 11:46 AM 0 Comments
we're like a massive family,
this i'll miss for sure.
sidenote:
scrawled across the cubicle door at The Royal Oak,
"i don't want to slide into apathy, and i don't want to die in captivity."
applicable to so many of us don't u think?
our insatiable chase for the singapore "dream".
finish 'A' levels, go to uni, hopefully get a good job, have a car, get a flat/house/roof over our heads, start a family, get them into good schools, maybe go for vacations during school holidays, send them to university, retire, look after grandkids.
how often do we actually pursue our passion?
do we really want to be doctors, lawyers, economists, accountants, entrepreneurs?
maybe some of us want to be photographers, actors, dancers, athletes, chefs, fashion designer, vintage shop owners.
my mum keeps asking me why my priorities after graduating is to travel for months on end before starting work, why am i being so self centered she asked.
if not now, when can i ever be?
when i'm tied down to my career, my family, my so-called adult life?
why is everyone so god damn pragmatic?
6 months will not make any fucking difference,
i'm already going to work for the rest of my life damn it.
i always get frustrated when i discuss my post graduation plans,
it is my life, even if it was you who gave it to me.
jiLL divulged at 8:25 PM 0 Comments
sunshower after dinner and
the view from my window.
jiLL divulged at 4:11 PM 0 Comments
a few shoutouts:
doofus: HELLO! i know you come here cause i noticed umich ip address!! :) hows everything my dear dear friend? is all good there? i might go up to michigan while i'm at the east coast, what say you?
king: i'm weary, i'm tired. i wish you were here to support me. how are things?
missy: i could do with a teh si and talk too. this sem has taken a chunk out of me.
my cherry and swiss bound beauties: it amazes me how our friendship can span 3 continents yet remain so strong. and i'm ever so thankful. thank you girls for being there, loving you always. get to see both of you soon!! though not at the same time unfortunately. we'll get there soon
my southhampton hottie: hows the new place? the new house mates? the new school term? any hot first years? ;) your present has been shipped! you should receive it.. soon? miss you!
as much as i would miss j and some other people here, i really can't wait to go home. i'm feeling burnt out and weary.
the countdown has already began.
jiLL divulged at 3:30 PM 0 Comments
that is finally over.
no more 40 page analysis, 20 minute presentation.
only prize giving ceremony on tuesday morn.
i can only cross my fingers.
well lifestyle this weekend, rather decadent.
no alarms,
sleep in.
recovering from the violent cough,
sounding like a man.
sunbaking in the glorious sunshine,
cooking and baking after.
life, life, if only it's always this sweet.
jiLL divulged at 5:49 PM 0 Comments