Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you plann'd:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.
-- Remember by Christina Rosetti
jiLL divulged at 5:26 PM 0 Comments
i woke up crying with a wrenching feeling in my chest.
my dream, so vivid and hurtful.
why are my dreams so real these days?
what are dreams?
subconscious issues, memories, reminders?
all i'll ask for is a night of rest, void of dreams...
jiLL divulged at 12:37 PM 0 Comments
took alot of public transport today..
listened to my cds, past familiar places on new bus routes i never took before.
remembered many people, recalled many memories.
felt incredible sadness, yet amidst that found myself smiling.
today was, like quality chocolate, bittersweet.
jiLL divulged at 9:42 PM 0 Comments
well done guys.
it's about time it came back to us.
sailors, think you guys can make me cry at nationals as well?
jiLL divulged at 11:29 PM 0 Comments
is it wise to immerse yourself into a relationship,
such that you start to feel the dependence?
i hate it.
especially when i know the road ahead is going to be so tough.
jiLL divulged at 9:35 PM 0 Comments
is happiness a true raw feeling that radiates from within,
or is it merely an optimistic perception of a situation?
jiLL divulged at 11:29 PM 0 Comments
i miss the times we had.
talking to you two on sat got me reminiscing.
greg,cai,dahui,ben,zhen,zhang,gerard,martin,terence
toh,roy,john,nick,wombat,jeanie,fengyang,zhiyong among others
uncle koh,uncle edwin,uncle francis
ben the repair uncle who puts down his tools whenever the wind hits, and go windsurf
the soccer table at noss, the pool table at csc
our swing from the trees, our fish catching escapades with our t-shirts as nets
the pool at csc where we'll just jump in after trg
towing to loyang and ubin with the long orange towing rope
really long debriefs by you know who and uncle yogi
liang lao shi
the new zealand trip which i had so much fun
snatching of tube holes to leave our sails hanging rather than unrigging
arriving at the club real early to rig and then play
soccer after trainings
very very cold showers at noss
and amazement of the nice-ness of toilets at csc the very first time
oh and the really run down shack of safyc way way before it got the new clubhouse
our annual opti camps
or our national squad camp?
jacob
grand opening of nsc
sailing between clubs rather than transporting by land!!
our talks by the breakwater
our songs that we sang
dirty jokes or speech filled w sexual connotation
burping!
the crazy year when we sailed the storm before nationals and got so tired.
cringing at the sight of you know who in his v tiny trunks *gosh*
rolling of sails, fighting for the hose, flipping of boats, taking them down
rushing for trolleys!
swimming or rather splashing ard on windless days
swimming out for training on windless days!
after training dinners, uncle koh you treating?
lifts from uncle koh
i could go on and on and on and on
i miss the days where i look forward to weekends of sailing under the sun, and the amazing company of the people whom i so miss today.
we should have a party!! just like the ol' times, how can i forget the parties?
my kid is so gonna sail. but first, swimming lessons.
jiLL divulged at 11:48 AM 0 Comments
haqeem, you never did play 'once upon a december' for me did you?
it's playing on my winamp now and i thought of you.
i wonder how you are doing now, what you are doing now.
i know you'll never read this but hope all's good with you.
tc
the weekend was rather relaxing, which was good.
not that i had really stressful week or anything. ha
coaching on sat was alright, well i didn't puke blood! haha
but while coaching i got a little unsure.
like what do i have to stand in front of this team and coach?
losing confidence in my standard of sailing. wanle! =(
oh, thank you for sending AND fetching me from nsc ;)
sorry for causing you to have'interrogation' when you returned to grams in the mornin!
ahh! miss you already. POOOO
jiLL divulged at 10:52 AM 0 Comments
send me off in a jazz funeral alright?
thanks.
jiLL divulged at 12:28 PM 0 Comments
i just watched the nick berg video.
fuck.
jiLL divulged at 11:51 PM 0 Comments
houston, texas.
launceston, tasmania.
i have my reservations.
but as you so aptly put it,
i hope we'll last.
so do i baby, so do i.
we have a long road ahead, indeed we do.
think of day, and think of me.
how soon will 3 years pass?
jiLL divulged at 10:48 PM 0 Comments
today's a really good day.
parents letting me go to tasmania to study maritime!! =)
totally unexpected, heh. yay!
and
mother's day dinner was a success.
PHEW. thought i'll totally screw up cause it's my first time doing asian food but i passed! ;)
maybe exquisite french cuisine next year mama? hee
and
thank you for coming over!
*muacks.
kisses for all
jiLL divulged at 7:59 PM 0 Comments
when, oh when, will i get some lovin' from you?
if you ask me now, don't be surprised if i just walk away one day.
jiLL divulged at 7:39 PM 0 Comments
i'm inclining to the thought of culinary school.
maybe in the states or europe.
dad did suggest france.
drawback is, of course, the language.
jiLL divulged at 9:52 PM 0 Comments
phuture was sooo crowded..
too crowded for my liking.
but i did have fun though. it was a rather nice night..
but you totally made my night by simply appearing.
and sending me home. yes that was good as well.
thank you thank you thank you.
ilu!
jiLL divulged at 12:42 AM 0 Comments