Lauren Wood---Fallen
I can't believe it, you're a dream comin' true.
I can't believe how I have fallen for you.
And I was not looking, was content to remain.
And it's ironic to be back in the game.
You are the one who's led me to the sun.
How could I know that I was lost without you...
And I want to tell you, you control my rain..
And you should know that you are life in my veins.
You are the one who's led me to the sun.
How could I know that I was lost without you...
I can't believe it, you're a dream comin' true.
I can't believe how I have fallen for you.
And I was not looking, was content to remain.
And it's erotic to be back in the game.
jiLL divulged at 6:53 PM 0 Comments
i'm sorry i was not exactly myself yesterday,
feeling totally off and detached.
to my surroundings and to you.
was not particularly overjoyed that you called,
though i normally would have been smiling like crazy.
maybe it's been too long since i last met you,
but that's quite a dumb reason rite.
you were perpetually on my thoughts yesterday,
so the phonecall should have been good right?
but WHY not?
maybe cause you started the conversation sounding like you were talking to your collegue?
or maybe cause hearing your voice makes me miss you more?
and in actual fact, i want to see you and not just hear your voice anymore?
i don't like to be emotionally dependant on you.
on anyone.
but hell, it's happening ain't it.
mark told me yesterday that it's ok to be emotionally dependent.
he said humans are not solitary creatures.
we can and need to be emotionally dependent on some things,
or in this case, some people.
we are not lone pillars of society,
we are inevitably intertwined to each other,
each caught in each other's webs.
but how about the vulnerability one would experience?
the lost feeling one would feel if one such dependence should ever fail.
he said "you just got to give it a shot [you got to trust them]"
i hate giving my heart away, for fear it'll return broken.
jiLL divulged at 1:02 PM 0 Comments
i'm so pissed!!!!
i typed like 355 captions on the pictures and now they tell me my session has timed out!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!
#@%()*&@#%)@_#*(@&#$@#$%&@#%*(@#&%@)#(*%&!(@!)@#$*&!
jiLL divulged at 4:03 AM 0 Comments
home!
and hell it feels good..
one downer though, my aircon is leaking @#$@*
and the humidity kills ard here..
i want american weather in singapore!
jiLL divulged at 12:20 AM 0 Comments
gonna leave for the airport soon,
whoopee!
haha first time i'm happy to end my holiday..
i've been away for too long..
miss so many things, so many ppl.
makes me appreciate the familiarity of home, and the people ard me.
ha next bed i'm sleeping in, is mine!
my own..my preciousss...
ok i'm being dumb.
goodbye america!
jiLL divulged at 12:18 AM 0 Comments
it's chilly tonight..13 degrees..i'm cold mmm
looking forward to sleeping on my own bed. heh
i'm coming home!
jiLL divulged at 3:16 PM 0 Comments
to whom this may concern:
i wanna go home..
don't get me wrong, i'm having a lot of fun.
but i miss you!!
worse still you'll be in japan when i return!
*growl*
what lousy timing.
jiLL divulged at 1:25 AM 0 Comments
to the kid: hey hey you! don't get so bogged down by all the tutorials and stuff.
don't get me wrong, hell study. but at the same time, treasure the times you have with the people ard you.
the people who you care about, cause after this it gets tougher.
tougher to keep in touch cause everyone will be at a new stage of life etc
these few months will feel like crap [o now you believe it] but it'll really be over before you say "good bye"
bitter sweet moments like these will remain with you, not forever yes, but at least for a long time to come.
i took a specific picture in the states just for you!
maybe i'll meet up with you for ice cream or something and give you the picture ;)
meanwhile you just take care alright?
start smiling again and you can chase the blues away.
drifting away.. love, me with the red bag and shoes! haha
jiLL divulged at 2:25 AM 0 Comments
viva las vegas!
woah i love the fountain at the bellagio.
it really is heavenly. even somewhat magical.
you actually feel transported to another world. amazing.
intially the casinos everywhere were somewhat an eye opener,
but after a while, it just got irritating.
it really is EVERYWHERE!!
on the way to the hotel lobby, the diners, the gas stations, outside the supermarket etc
"ching! *rumble (of the dials turning)* ching ching ching!". grrr.
gambled and lost.
oh well! didn't really expect to win, but would have been nice though. haha
too bad for you, i demolished your tai tai dreams.
US$10 million ain't no small sum i tell ya. ha
had dinner at a real nice place, rated the "best italian restaurant in las vegas"
was good, was good! even had a free flow of wine.
and of course i 'didn't bring' my id. [legal age to drink here is 21, even strict s'pore is 18!!]
haha so while i'm here, i illegally gambled and drank.
next thing is to get in to a caberat show.
will attempt that tmr or something.
try to dress a little more mature and TRY to pass off as 21.
think i drank too much, head is a little woozy. heh
i miss singapore, the people [some more than others] and with no doubt, the food.
still two more weeks till i get back!
can't wait to sink my teeth into some laksa or spicy curry!
shoutouts
-- meilay: babe! you take major major care ok? miss you! we will definitely meet when i return! hugs for you =)
-- sharee: yes yes we have to catch up when i come back, cause i miss you! hope everything's fine and dandy for you babe, take care and we'll meet soon, heh
-- justin: heh thanks! maybe we can go to cherie's house to cook again. the last time was quite nice. heh
-- andy: not sure if you even see this, but i miss you!
-- king: hey you, hope you 'come back' soon. miss you. hope we can meet when i return alright? *major hugs* take care, chubby is here for you, promise.
-- fat boy in never never land: saw the peter pan banner at universal studios the other day and thought of you! hope all's well with you. take care
-- my two dao-smile partners: miss you two. meet up soon ok?
a few more, but they don't even know this exist. so i'll just zip it up.
heard this on the tv today and it goes out to the people close to my heart.
as constant as the stars above, always know that you are loved.
jiLL divulged at 2:14 PM 0 Comments
dum dee dum.
mum's not feeling well, so i'm stuck in the hotel.
well at least this hotel has a got a business center with free internet!
mmm sun's been out today.
cool but sunny. nice, i like.
might be getting sick though. think we both didn't drink enough water.
gg to san diego zoo and wildland park the next two days.
then to farmers market and carlsbad village and then to mexico!
how very exciting. quite looking forward to mexico i must say.
amigos! ok whatever.
maybe i'll go tan or swim or do something. bye!
jiLL divulged at 7:16 AM 0 Comments
shit happens.
well, did for me at least.
i'll just tread from here i guess.
sorry if i ignored your msgs, one too expensive.
two, i'm feeling better already and i refuse to think about it no more.
well, off to san diego!
ps. thank you andy, for everything *hugs*
jiLL divulged at 3:26 AM 0 Comments