Friday, April 30, 2004

it's the mask at work again..



Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...smile.

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Monday, April 26, 2004

the euphoria of day tapered to the sobriety of night.

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Sunday, April 25, 2004

i honestly don't know what to say.
it does seem silly if i tell you to be strong,
cause i know for a fact that you ARE strong.
in fact, way way stronger than i am.
i wish i knew how to make you feel better, or better still, be there for you.
i am here for you, but i'm not totally sure if you want me around.

what do you do when you have no idea how to give support to a person going through emotional shitdom?
i'm feeling a little lost and helpless cause i can't take away the truth.
but i'll pray cause prayer never hurts.
i hope you know that i care, that i am here for you and that i'm willing to be your pillar of strength like you have been for me.
these i'll pray.

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for you, the boy who never fails to get me smiling..
just wanna say, thank you.



Uncle Kracker- Drift Away


Day after day I'm more confused
But I look for the light through the pourin' rain
You know, that's a game, that I hate to lose
I'm feelin' the strain, ain't it a shame


CHORUS:
Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and DRIFT AWAY
Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and DRIFT AWAY


Won't you take me away


Beginin' to think, that I'm wastin' time
And I don't understand the things I do
The world outside looks so unkind
I'm countin' on you, you can carry me through


CHORUS


And when my mind is free
You know your melody can move me
And when I'm feelin' blue
The guitars come through to soothe me


Thanks for the joy you've given me
I want you to know I believe in your song
And rhythm, and rhythm, and harmony
You helped me along, you're makin' me strong

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Saturday, April 24, 2004

meeting you today totally made my day! ;)
better than getting my long awaited pictures developed
or finding those fab shoes i've been looking for weeks..
you you you! haha so so good to see you..
sorry i left so quickly though..
almost left your card at the ticketing table but went all the way down during the chinese dance to get it.
heh

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Thursday, April 22, 2004

i miss the team..
we were one hell of a team, really.

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Tuesday, April 20, 2004

and now i shall throw your words back at you..thank you for being you..



Life is like sailing... U meet storms that set you back, windless days that bring you nowhere, but more often than not, there will be days with decent winds to give you headway. However, as you would know, making headway may not always be easy... going upwind can be tough! But you, you are like that lifter... making the upwind task a whole lot more pleasant. You are like the nice wave that lets you plane off wind. You are like fresh, clean and clear air... absolutely welcoming.

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Monday, April 19, 2004

please god, let me be strong.

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Thursday, April 15, 2004

been rather domesticated the last couple of days..
baked my first loaf of bread all by myself today!
healthy wholewheat bread..
turned out fineeee.... hee ;)
happy as a bird!

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Wednesday, April 14, 2004

the cheesecake was good! ;)
heh

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Tuesday, April 13, 2004

made my first oreo cheesecake today,
it has to be chilled overnight.
sure hope as hell it doesn't flop.
i'm stinking like a bomb.
a bath is in order.

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Monday, April 12, 2004

the ten perfections..

- generosity
- moral integrity
- renunciation
- wisdom
- energy
- patience
- honesty
- determination
- loving kindness
- equanimity

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Sunday, April 11, 2004

it's been a good weekend.
thank you, pink cow.

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Sunday, April 04, 2004

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

gave degraw -- i don't wanna be

jiLL divulged at 11:25 PM 0 Comments

love qing tian and gui ji, though they do seem like break up songs.
mmm haha only chinese songs i listen are jay chou!
his ballads at least, heh.

ni ming tian hui lai le!
zhong yu!

jiLL divulged at 8:46 PM 0 Comments

i like team dinners.
as in, really like it.

i like talking to doofus too.
so nice, even after such a long time.
i'm glad things didn't become weird between us even after so long.

i like bars with nice music where friends can just sit and chill.
i like gin tonic and B-52.

today, i'm a happy happy girl.

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Saturday, April 03, 2004

holiday shots part I
holiday shots part II

well finally!

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