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Sunday, February 29, 2004

to one of my closest friend on the 1st of march:

happy happy birthday girl!
may this day be one filled with smiles and laughter.
[sure hope you're not working]
here i wish your 19th year be one fulfilling year,
with great things to come your way.
whatever happens, you know that you always have me to fall back on alright?
love you and take care.
happy birthday you.
we'll catch up when i come back. *hugs*

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Sunday, February 22, 2004

woohoo! goodbye singapore!

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Sunday, February 15, 2004

i don't know why i just posted that when i'm actually quite happy with what i have.

on a very random note: i feel like swimming in the sea now. under the big dark sky with stars above me.

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quoted...and re-quoted " the thought of being in love has once too often crossed our minds. but the thought of being attached also makes us cringe."

WHY IS IT SO?

being in love creates the illusion of simple sweet bliss.
euphoria and contentment.
while being attached is often condemned with suffocation and pain.
and often, eventually ending with heartache.
being in love feels great, but sometimes the attachments that come with it just suck. [thus the term being attached]
there's always someone who comes along and spoil it.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

Rose Walker, in Sandman: The Kindly Ones by Neil Gaman

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Friday, February 13, 2004

very satisfied with today's haul.
if you can hear me, i'm purring like a cat which caught the mouse.
hee

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*uploaded new pictures!

yay going shopping later! ;)
nice comfy jacket perhaps?
and something semi-formal for mark's social nite? mmm
can't wait to go see my brother..heh
10 more days!!
so happy =) one month, one MONTH!!!! haha
delirious.

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Thursday, February 12, 2004

it certainly is nice when you meet a friend online and all you have to do is talk
and you'll be brimming with happy juice =)
last night's conversation, though short, was totally enjoyable.
smiles all around!
this one's just for you kid! *hugs*

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Wednesday, February 11, 2004

one should never attempt 30 hours of work in two days.
it just kills you.

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Thursday, February 05, 2004

take me by the hand, take me someplace new..

i'm undeniably drained by conflicting whirlwind emotions.
on one hand, i'm thrilled for you, proud of you for your accomplishments.
i mean, you've told me this was your goal and now you're going to attain it, it's a job well done.
on the other hand, i'm curling into a ball and losing my senses.
two years is a long time, much less three.
by the time you're back, will things still be the same?
it IS possible that we'll make it, hell anything is possible.
but it'll be so difficult wouldn't it?
i feel like a patient who is awaiting treatment.
scared shitless, but gotta try anyway even if chances are so fucking low.

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Wednesday, February 04, 2004

the last couple of days have been good.
met with people who never fail to bring a smile to me.
absolute comfort zone.
and the last samurai was soo good!!
live life in honour.
damn i want a samurai husband.
urm, maybe not.

on a random note: you're coming back tonight!!! =)

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Sunday, February 01, 2004

question of the day : does nostalgia always go down better with a loved one beside you?

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the idea of clubs crawling with people is beggining to be a turn off.
sweaty bodies rubbing against each other, friends puking in corners..
no thank you.
i'd rather enjoy a pint of beer or two at a bar with a couple of pals.
accompanied by a live band of course.
swell.

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