as the date draws closer,
instead of ploughing ahead with my revision
i'm faltering.
half of me just want to f**k it and forget university.
the other half tells me to just hang in there.
and hate going to the university anyway.
honestly, i don't care whether i get to the university or not.
that's not what i want to do.
when ppl ask me what i want to do,
i reply "business i guess".
it SEEMS like i have a goal, something to work towards.
but the reason i'm studying is all because of my parent's expectations of me.
if i could just f**k their expectations,
i wouldn't even be studying.
i'd just start working.
i know i wouldn't get a great high flying professional job,
but hey, i never said i wanted a life like that.
i don't have great expectations of myself in terms of career.
there is something i'd really like to study,
sports psycology.
but guess what? "you'll never get a job in singapore"
ok thanks mum thanks dad for being ever so supportive.
another is to open a shop. to start on my own.
travel to thailand,hk,japan,taiwan,
do selective purchases and sell them here.
either clothes or home furnishings like lamps, cupboards etc.
my shop would have warm lights with soft jazz music.
my customers greeted with a ready smile.
i would like something like that.
but it wouldn't happen would it.
jiLL divulged at 9:27 PM 0 Comments