Friday, October 31, 2003

Painter song - Norah jones

If I were a painter
I would paint my reverie
If that's the only way for you to be with me

We'd be there together
Just like we used to be
Underneath the swirling skies for all to see

And I'm dreaming of a place
Where I could see your face
And I think my brush would take me there
But only...

If I were a painter
And could paint a memory
I'd climb inside the swirling skies to be with you
I'd climb inside the skies to be with you

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Friday, October 24, 2003

as the date draws closer,
instead of ploughing ahead with my revision
i'm faltering.
half of me just want to f**k it and forget university.
the other half tells me to just hang in there.
and hate going to the university anyway.
honestly, i don't care whether i get to the university or not.
that's not what i want to do.
when ppl ask me what i want to do,
i reply "business i guess".
it SEEMS like i have a goal, something to work towards.
but the reason i'm studying is all because of my parent's expectations of me.
if i could just f**k their expectations,
i wouldn't even be studying.
i'd just start working.
i know i wouldn't get a great high flying professional job,
but hey, i never said i wanted a life like that.
i don't have great expectations of myself in terms of career.
there is something i'd really like to study,
sports psycology.
but guess what? "you'll never get a job in singapore"
ok thanks mum thanks dad for being ever so supportive.
another is to open a shop. to start on my own.
travel to thailand,hk,japan,taiwan,
do selective purchases and sell them here.
either clothes or home furnishings like lamps, cupboards etc.
my shop would have warm lights with soft jazz music.
my customers greeted with a ready smile.
i would like something like that.
but it wouldn't happen would it.

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Thursday, October 23, 2003

i don't consider myself a great fan or anything.
but reading that elliot smith stabbed himself in an apparent suicide
makes me a tad sad.
i do like his songs, more than others at least.
his breathy, 80s sounding voice simply stirs something in me.
the simple cords and the guitar,
soothing.
such a great musician.
what a pity.
here's to you elliot.
and while i'm at it, years late but what the hell,
here's to you kurt.

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when i heard jieke sing this song in the hall today,
i fell in love with it all over again.

The entertainer

hey you this song is for you
every song that i sing i sing for you
hey you i'll sing for you
everything that i do i do for you
cause i'm the entertainer i'll do my best to pleaase you
cause i'm the entertainer i'll do my best to pleaase you
cause i'm the entertainer...er .er.er.er
cause i'm the entertainer...erererereer

hey you you know i love you
in the songs that i sing i sing i love you
hey you i'll sing for you
every song that i sing i sing for you...
i'll sing into the night
i'll sing whatever you like
i'll sing into the night....

credits: written and sung by goh jieke

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Wednesday, October 22, 2003

everywhere i go,
every smile i see,
i know you are there smiling back at me.
dancing in moonlight, i know you are free
cause i can see your star shining down on me..

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Tuesday, October 21, 2003

i want to stop struggling.
argh.

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Sunday, October 19, 2003

You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.

"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."

Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).
The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.
Her sign is the eclipsed moon.

As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.

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Thursday, October 16, 2003

shut up.
if only i could shut everything out simply by placing my palms on my ears.
fat chance.

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Wednesday, October 15, 2003

something in me is yearning for the mad rush to the beach and plunging into the cool comforts of the sea.
my logical head screams "NOO!".
crap.

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Monday, October 13, 2003

Idealist: a cynic in the making.
-Layton, Irving

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dear you,
do you know i still think of you?
love, me

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Saturday, October 11, 2003

i've been riding waves.
constantly having great days and horrible nights.
what's with that.
hate it. like i'm two different ppl.
end.

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Saturday, October 04, 2003

nora won the ford supermodel! well done!
don't tk girls just rock. heh

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to whom it may concern:

come home soon.

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Friday, October 03, 2003

Don't be dismayed at good-byes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetimes is certain for those who are friends.
--Richard Bach, "Illusions"

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Wednesday, October 01, 2003

i've always wanted a musical box.
the catch was, i only wanted my mum to get it for me.
it's not like a 'i'll use mum's money' to get it kindna thing.
i wanted her to go buy it, and i mean actually look for it, for me.
to me, musical boxes are special.
really special.
a musical box is like an expression of love.
an invisible bond of unconditional love.
and that's what mum's love is all about.
it really is a huge deal to me.
maybe i'm just caught in my ideal world again,
where everything is 'meant to be' and mums gave their daughters musical boxes.
and today, i got mine.
it's beautiful. it's meant to be my birthday present,
but my mum gave it to me today anyway.
it's simple and as new as it is, it so special already.
when my mum gave it to me, i was so happy i actually teared.
yeh, over a musical box.
but hell, it's not just a musical box, it's my mother's love i felt.
she said that i'm gonna be eighteen,
and the present had to be special.
and yes, it's special indeed.
in more ways than you can ever imagine.
i love you too.

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